Paddled
I went to the Providence Fetish Fair Fleamarket today. Some friends were going and it seemed like one of those things that was worth doing at least once in your life. Overall it was, ok. Half of it was in the big conference rooms, and then another half was in normal hotel rooms covering the entire the third and 4th floor of this hotel. The former was very cool, the latter was claustrophobic, hard to maneuver through, and generally annoying.
I may go to future fetish fairs, but not any where they pull that again. Apparently this year there was some sort of cheerleader gathering at the nearby convention center, so they couldn’t use it.
However, there were a couple things that were truly memorable and made it worth it for me (other than seeing my friends). Seeing all the kinky people walking around in their fetish gear without worry was one of the biggest. There were your typical collection doms holding leashes to their subs, of course, but there were also a couple ponies, a few crossdressers*, and my personal favorite, a fantabulous majorette** in white and gold. It was just so awesome to see these people being themselves, dressing, and acting, in the way that makes them feel good, without having to worry about anyone looking down on them for it.
While we were checking out an interesting selection of t-shirts for doms there was a girl nearby, fully dressed, in something you wouldn’t think twice about, getting a light paddling. At first I just thought it was someone showing her what a particular paddle felt like, which isn’t even noteworthy at a fetish fair, but no, it went on for maybe thirty seconds, and while it may have started as a flirt, there was something about her face, and the quality of the silence that emerged between them…
I was mesmerized, couldn’t take my eyes away. And it was surprisingly erotic, but not for the reasons you’d think. Paddling doesn’t really do much for me. I can appreciate it, but it’s not something I have any desire to seek out. And, I certainly don’t enjoy watching S&M displays. No, it was that, for a moment, this nameless girl allowed an incredibly intimate part of herself to peek out in public, and there are few things in this world sexier than seeing someone let down their mask in a situation that turns them on.
The memory of that moment will stick with me for a long time, and so, I found and drew a little playful paddling for you.
There’s something really sad about the fact that Americans are so uncomfortable with their sexuality. We’re all doms and subs to some degree, maybe we don’t take on a formal D & S relationship, but some of us find great release in letting our partners take control in the bedroom, and some of us like taking control in the bedroom. Some people have discovered the fact that as you become aroused your nerves get a little confused about pain, and what would normally hurt can become intensely pleasurable. Some of us get turned on by dressing a certain way, and most of us get turned on seeing our partner dressing a certain way. The point is, that even if this is a “kink”, even if what you like to do, or see, is considered a “fetish”, wouldn’t it be nicer if we lived in a world where people didn’t have to be afraid, or ashamed, to indulge in the intimate things that make them feel good?
Maybe tonight you should turn to you lover and tell them one of your secrets, your fantasies. Tell them something that turns you on that you’d never mentioned before. If you’re lucky, it’ll turn them on too. But, remember to take it easy with your revelations. We live in a society that teaches people to be ashamed of what they do in the bedroom, ashamed of even touching ourselves, and your partner may have a little trouble coming to terms with the things you like. But, if they love you, they’ll at least accept them as part of you. If you don’t have a lover, maybe you should indulge yourself a little, do that thing that’s always turned you on but you’ve been embarrassed, or ashamed of. Don’t worry. I won’t tell. Just be safe.
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* Forty something guy with grey hair parted on the side, and walking with your wife? You totally rocked that little black dress.
** Majorette Girl, you were totally my hero today. You looked awesome. — If anyone happens to know the Majorette Girl at the Providence Fetish Fair this weekend please let her know that she made my day.
